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a love letter
Dear Calculus,
So it ends.
We both know that this is where the ten months we have spent together have been leading to, but still. During those ten months, I have learned a lot- I won't deny it. I learned how to integrate functions, how to get their derivatives, how to study- really study, not just try out a few problems just to see if you can still solve them- for math. How it feels to get an over-perfect on a math long test, how you should never forget the "+C" part of the integrated function or else, how to maintain a modicum of common sense even though you have absolutely no idea how a 256/15 popped up on your paper, how to laugh when you see a 4/25 score, in red ink, on your own paper instead of someone else's. I have learned a lot. Maybe I can even say that I am beginning to understand you, after all this time.
It had to end, if only because that is the way that life will always go, if only because if nothing did we would all be stuck doing STR for the rest of our lives. But maybe, if you had made yourself even just a little more comprehensible in the first place, it wouldn't have had to end like this.
So it ends.
We both know that this is where the ten months we have spent together have been leading to, but still. During those ten months, I have learned a lot- I won't deny it. I learned how to integrate functions, how to get their derivatives, how to study- really study, not just try out a few problems just to see if you can still solve them- for math. How it feels to get an over-perfect on a math long test, how you should never forget the "+C" part of the integrated function or else, how to maintain a modicum of common sense even though you have absolutely no idea how a 256/15 popped up on your paper, how to laugh when you see a 4/25 score, in red ink, on your own paper instead of someone else's. I have learned a lot. Maybe I can even say that I am beginning to understand you, after all this time.
It had to end, if only because that is the way that life will always go, if only because if nothing did we would all be stuck doing STR for the rest of our lives. But maybe, if you had made yourself even just a little more comprehensible in the first place, it wouldn't have had to end like this.