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killing boredom at iba pa
Boredom is an entirely new experience to me. No, I'm serious. Because before, when I had nothing to do, I could let my mind drift to my multiverses of madness, or random events that occur in the future, or have occurred in the past, or will never occur at all. I don't know, now I'm more or less killing them, my inane dreams and tales. Why? I don't know. (I feel like counting how many times I say "I don't know".) They appear naturally, but I can't do anything about them. I can't write them down since I don't trust my ability to portray them well enough, and I can't fine-tune them since they go away whenever I try. So there. I get bored when I have nothing to do. I try to read, and I try to bug people, but when I'm no longer in the mood to do so, I have nothing else to turn to, no more imaginary nonsense.
This is further exacerbated by the fact that he can't text me since he has no load, and he can't go online.
I'm being sentimental again.
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Pause. Time out. I have something to say.
I don't know why people read this thing, I don't know why people bother minding what I have to say, and above all that I don't know why people say I write well (ang kapal ko, baka nagloloko na ako dito). I don't think I write well. Maybe the occasional good ideas or witty comments, but not consistent enough to be counted as well.
If you disagree with me up there, you will be disappointed.
My beloved wyvernstars is my dumpsite. No, erase, it's more of a recycle bin: it is where I dump stuff that is still redeemable, that is not entirely worthless, that may be converted into something useful, but that is, for the moment, junk. So if its contents aren't up to par, whatever that par may be....
... don't say I didn't warn you.
Time back in.
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SEP!
(Pasensya na kayo, I have no idea how to begin this thing, whatever you call it. This section of a post. This passage. This piece. This whatever.)
I'm not going to say that I am good at math, since that would be lying. I'm not going to say that I'm stupid at math, either, since that would also be lying. We Pisay scholars got into this school in the first place because, if we are not exactly geniuses at math, we aren't exactly hopeless at it either. Not even those who receive failing marks at it. Since our school is the country's premier high school in the maths and sciences, don't you think its standards ought to be higher?
What I'm going to say is, why put up SEP?
Some would say that it's for those not so gifted in math. I say that those not so gifted in math aren't in Pisay to begin with.
Some would say that it's for those with failing grades, who will need extra practice in math in order to pass. I say that that's what the exercises in our math books and our homeworks are for.
Some would say that it's so that students could get advanced training in math. I say, why need advance training? Isn't learning math part of what school is for? If you learn the lessons in the summer, then what's the point of going through third year math? To show off your grades? But that isn't what school is for. In theory, school is for learning.
(And maybe this is just me, but I don't bother with classes when I know what's being taught. I end up not listening and not studying. That's what I used to do in my old school. But likely that's just me and my insanity.)
If you're in Pisay, that means you're considered intelligent enough to cope with the lessons. That you can handle the high standards, the pace at which the lessons are conducted, the level of what's being taught. Not neccessarily effortlessly- you may need a bit of work- but you can cope with it.
And if you get kicked out, I'm not saying that you deserve it, that you're not worthy of being in Pisay, but maybe the authorities think that you'll progress more, that you'll learn more in another school. I don't know about this part, though.
I don't know, if you disagree then go ahead and disagree. I just don't see the point in SEP.
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I'm still here, I've been here since, I don't know, two in the afternoon? Still online. Hoping. Waiting. Thinking of the slight chance that he might go online.
If he goes online, and I can just talk to him, even just for a few minutes, a few seconds, it would all be worth it.
This is further exacerbated by the fact that he can't text me since he has no load, and he can't go online.
I'm being sentimental again.
---
Pause. Time out. I have something to say.
I don't know why people read this thing, I don't know why people bother minding what I have to say, and above all that I don't know why people say I write well (ang kapal ko, baka nagloloko na ako dito). I don't think I write well. Maybe the occasional good ideas or witty comments, but not consistent enough to be counted as well.
If you disagree with me up there, you will be disappointed.
My beloved wyvernstars is my dumpsite. No, erase, it's more of a recycle bin: it is where I dump stuff that is still redeemable, that is not entirely worthless, that may be converted into something useful, but that is, for the moment, junk. So if its contents aren't up to par, whatever that par may be....
... don't say I didn't warn you.
Time back in.
---
SEP!
(Pasensya na kayo, I have no idea how to begin this thing, whatever you call it. This section of a post. This passage. This piece. This whatever.)
I'm not going to say that I am good at math, since that would be lying. I'm not going to say that I'm stupid at math, either, since that would also be lying. We Pisay scholars got into this school in the first place because, if we are not exactly geniuses at math, we aren't exactly hopeless at it either. Not even those who receive failing marks at it. Since our school is the country's premier high school in the maths and sciences, don't you think its standards ought to be higher?
What I'm going to say is, why put up SEP?
Some would say that it's for those not so gifted in math. I say that those not so gifted in math aren't in Pisay to begin with.
Some would say that it's for those with failing grades, who will need extra practice in math in order to pass. I say that that's what the exercises in our math books and our homeworks are for.
Some would say that it's so that students could get advanced training in math. I say, why need advance training? Isn't learning math part of what school is for? If you learn the lessons in the summer, then what's the point of going through third year math? To show off your grades? But that isn't what school is for. In theory, school is for learning.
(And maybe this is just me, but I don't bother with classes when I know what's being taught. I end up not listening and not studying. That's what I used to do in my old school. But likely that's just me and my insanity.)
If you're in Pisay, that means you're considered intelligent enough to cope with the lessons. That you can handle the high standards, the pace at which the lessons are conducted, the level of what's being taught. Not neccessarily effortlessly- you may need a bit of work- but you can cope with it.
And if you get kicked out, I'm not saying that you deserve it, that you're not worthy of being in Pisay, but maybe the authorities think that you'll progress more, that you'll learn more in another school. I don't know about this part, though.
I don't know, if you disagree then go ahead and disagree. I just don't see the point in SEP.
---
I'm still here, I've been here since, I don't know, two in the afternoon? Still online. Hoping. Waiting. Thinking of the slight chance that he might go online.
If he goes online, and I can just talk to him, even just for a few minutes, a few seconds, it would all be worth it.