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levitySed passed sign-up sheets for Mediscene actors and props people around the class this afternoon and they came back filled and I feel like I've won the Lotto; that is: I have probably been happier, but I can't remember when.
I missed this, this wonderful electric feeling of grabbing people and making something and making that something work, and of course I'm so fucking scared of creating something that is pure dissection with no emotional core and of course I'm going to screw up and of course that will all be irrelevant tomorrow, because tomorrow we are going to have our first read-through and I've been asked when auditions were, I haven't had to do auditions since Garnet, because I have the best team ever and because I am director, my job is to get stressed and not to be scared of anything, and because not doing the play is not anywhere near the list of options that can be counted as acceptable. And there's an actual Facebook group (I use my Facebook now, more or less; my mental justification is that his love story ended in tragedy and ruin, so I may as well use his site) and this is going to happen. It's the best thing in the world. Cough drops have nothing on it.
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(Listen to me, kids: you have to pick all the fights, and then decide which ones aren't worth following through on, because one day you won't be able to, and that will change everything.)
I missed this, this wonderful electric feeling of grabbing people and making something and making that something work, and of course I'm so fucking scared of creating something that is pure dissection with no emotional core and of course I'm going to screw up and of course that will all be irrelevant tomorrow, because tomorrow we are going to have our first read-through and I've been asked when auditions were, I haven't had to do auditions since Garnet, because I have the best team ever and because I am director, my job is to get stressed and not to be scared of anything, and because not doing the play is not anywhere near the list of options that can be counted as acceptable. And there's an actual Facebook group (I use my Facebook now, more or less; my mental justification is that his love story ended in tragedy and ruin, so I may as well use his site) and this is going to happen. It's the best thing in the world. Cough drops have nothing on it.
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(Listen to me, kids: you have to pick all the fights, and then decide which ones aren't worth following through on, because one day you won't be able to, and that will change everything.)
