I think I know the answer. Well, it should be obvious, really. I wonder what happened to the me of Garnet, of Champaca. I wonder. I think I spend more than half my time wondering why the stupid things that happen happen instead of trying to fix them.
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There are no classes today. Not surprisingly, that declaration was met with mixed reactions. Joy from the students who are tired of working. Frustration from those who just want to practice and then get their Ramayanas over and done with. I guess it's just selfishness on both parts. Well, not really. It's stupid of me to label it that. People's emotions are, after all, not for the benefit of others.
So maybe I'm annoyed when people forget about everyone else's problems and center on their own. But then again, why should I be? Why should anyone care about anyone else's problems? What good will it bring them? Why help others when you can use them anyway?
Why?
I'm not trying to imply anything there. I'm just wondering. Wondering why things that happen, happen, be they stupid or brilliant. Because sometimes things like friendship and happiness and love are so brilliant they don't make sense and you have to wonder why they happen. They have no logic in them. I sound like him, even though I know to look beyond the logic. But still, I wonder.
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There are no classes today. Not surprisingly, that declaration was met with mixed reactions. Joy from the students who are tired of working. Frustration from those who just want to practice and then get their Ramayanas over and done with. I guess it's just selfishness on both parts. Well, not really. It's stupid of me to label it that. People's emotions are, after all, not for the benefit of others.
So maybe I'm annoyed when people forget about everyone else's problems and center on their own. But then again, why should I be? Why should anyone care about anyone else's problems? What good will it bring them? Why help others when you can use them anyway?
Why?
I'm not trying to imply anything there. I'm just wondering. Wondering why things that happen, happen, be they stupid or brilliant. Because sometimes things like friendship and happiness and love are so brilliant they don't make sense and you have to wonder why they happen. They have no logic in them. I sound like him, even though I know to look beyond the logic. But still, I wonder.