1.550.

 It's almost pathetic. I don't know which is more pathetic, my grade, or the fact that I chose not to study and just see what happens? Or, the one who decided as such?

But still, I can't complain. We have a new Chem. teacher, a new quarter to start over with, new (and in some cases easier) lessons, new projects. But new isn't exactly the right term there, is it? Since everything of the present is affected by everything of the past. You can never really start over with a clean slate. Never.

Which is why hardly anyone can say they have no regrets. I think it is in the nature of those who think to weigh the value of what happened versus what would have happened, and their consequences, and their effects. To wonder which really mattered more, happiness in a solid present or happiness in a future that could never exist, and to wonder what would have happened.

Regret is a price of thought.

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I am going nowhere.

I mean that in all senses of the phrase. Nowhere in this post, nowhere in this world, nowhere in my life, nowhere in the STR sources I ought to be working on. Perhaps it is because I have nowhere to go. I wonder if people are born that way, or if society and upbringing made them that way, and if there is a difference, if the way they are born is tied in to the way they are brought up and the way society treats them.

(These random thoughts go nowhere as well, except to new paragraphs.)

Or perhaps it is because I have no interest in leaving.

I would like to think I prefer the latter. It means I have a choice in the matter. The same way I chose not to be in the DL last quarter, instead of having to figure out that no matter how hard I tried I would not get into the DL. Which did not happen, so I am not sure that it would have happened. But still. I chose to be not in the DL over being forced away from the DL by my abilities. Or lack thereof.

It all depends on what one values more. Happiness in a solid present or happiness in a future that could never exist? One's pride or one's future?

---

Do people ever really go anywhere? Or do they just delude themselves? Do they advance in some manners while forgetting other, less obvious, equally or maybe even more significant aspects of life? Six years from the ever-memorable 9/11, have people actually learned something from it? Or did it bring about nothing but bomb scares, wars, auras of terror, hatred, paranoia? Six years since Erap was ousted, why do people gather to support him, insist he is innocent?

Six years from the first time I set up my ever-expanding multiverse. Have we actually progressed? Or have we just been wasting time and energy and plant fibers over nothing?

Two years since I first entered Pisay. I have changed, I admit that. For the better? For the worse? But better and worse are only relative. Or do the changes amount to nothing at all? After all, the net force is still 0 if the friction is equal to the applied force.

Andali ng bonus sa Physics! Pati yung number 6 sa Chem. problem set! Parang anticlimax ata... Pero nakakatuwa pa rin. =>

1.550.

 It's almost pathetic. I don't know which is more pathetic, my grade, or the fact that I chose not to study and just see what happens? Or, the one who decided as such?

But still, I can't complain. We have a new Chem. teacher, a new quarter to start over with, new (and in some cases easier) lessons, new projects. But new isn't exactly the right term there, is it? Since everything of the present is affected by everything of the past. You can never really start over with a clean slate. Never.

Which is why hardly anyone can say they have no regrets. I think it is in the nature of those who think to weigh the value of what happened versus what would have happened, and their consequences, and their effects. To wonder which really mattered more, happiness in a solid present or happiness in a future that could never exist, and to wonder what would have happened.

Regret is a price of thought.

---

I am going nowhere.

I mean that in all senses of the phrase. Nowhere in this post, nowhere in this world, nowhere in my life, nowhere in the STR sources I ought to be working on. Perhaps it is because I have nowhere to go. I wonder if people are born that way, or if society and upbringing made them that way, and if there is a difference, if the way they are born is tied in to the way they are brought up and the way society treats them.

(These random thoughts go nowhere as well, except to new paragraphs.)

Or perhaps it is because I have no interest in leaving.

I would like to think I prefer the latter. It means I have a choice in the matter. The same way I chose not to be in the DL last quarter, instead of having to figure out that no matter how hard I tried I would not get into the DL. Which did not happen, so I am not sure that it would have happened. But still. I chose to be not in the DL over being forced away from the DL by my abilities. Or lack thereof.

It all depends on what one values more. Happiness in a solid present or happiness in a future that could never exist? One's pride or one's future?

---

Do people ever really go anywhere? Or do they just delude themselves? Do they advance in some manners while forgetting other, less obvious, equally or maybe even more significant aspects of life? Six years from the ever-memorable 9/11, have people actually learned something from it? Or did it bring about nothing but bomb scares, wars, auras of terror, hatred, paranoia? Six years since Erap was ousted, why do people gather to support him, insist he is innocent?

Six years from the first time I set up my ever-expanding multiverse. Have we actually progressed? Or have we just been wasting time and energy and plant fibers over nothing?

Two years since I first entered Pisay. I have changed, I admit that. For the better? For the worse? But better and worse are only relative. Or do the changes amount to nothing at all? After all, the net force is still 0 if the friction is equal to the applied force.

Andali ng bonus sa Physics! Pati yung number 6 sa Chem. problem set! Parang anticlimax ata... Pero nakakatuwa pa rin. =>