if you will pardon, we will mend

[levity]

I cannot call the shots. I can tell the person calling the shots that they're doing it wrong and this is how to do it better, I can pass on the shots with my added caveats and comments and general advice, I can fire away suggestions and run through everyone else's and make the result something we can work with, but I cannot be the person who throws ideas in the air to be gunned down and improved upon (and the way I structured that sentence already says a lot) and who has to put it all together. My entire existence depends on opposition and reaction and irritation at people doing things wrong. I cannot be the person who does things wrong to begin with.

Summary of that paragraph would be Lord, let this cup pass from me, if anyone were there to listen. I am not Prince Hamlet, and I'm not William Shakespeare either, but then again William Shakespeare never got anywhere by despairing about his inability to be William Shakespeare. (If someone tells me that this means that I ought to be despairing about my inability to be Kit Marlowe I will punch them, if I don't laugh first.) I am not our director*, but damn if we don't make this play the best play we can make it.



*All of a sudden I sympathize with all the directors I've ever rowed with. I suppose I get to be one sort of stupid in high school and another sort of stupid now.